sawing logs...

apparently i snore in my sleep. since when? how weird. any-who, i was sleeping in my new "sleeping chair" in the family area upstairs while my mom was getting ready for work this morning and said she heard me from downstairs, my snoring was THAT loud! uh-oh...maybe i do have sleep apnea. i hope not, but i won't know for sure until i see a specialist. not sure when i'll have the time or money to do that, but if i have to go seen one...then i have to go see one.

i've had the last week off of work, Dr.'s orders, and though i've been busy i feel happier and more at peace with life/myself. perhaps its because i'm away from that place or perhaps its because i've had the time to actually do some of the things that make me happy that i haven't done in a while. i've painted 3 mirrors & a shelf, used a new recipe for blueberry muffins (eh, they're alright...), bought tons of fabric remnants to start quilting with, snapped a good handful of pics, cleaned out my room & the upstairs (i'm talking getting rid of stuff i don't need any more), finger painted with my nephew, and spent some much needed time with the fam. and do you know what? i'm doing pretty good, mentally. all this "doing and cleaning" sort of cleans out the mind, ya know? i'm kind of anxious that going back to work tomorrow will bring back the old unhappy Rachel. but i have to do something that will support myself and i don't know of any "good" jobs out there that will allow me to have fun and still afford to live...any suggestions?

in the mean time my dad and i are looking into taking a photography course at our local community college starting in the fall. i want to learn how to take better shots and learn the basic functions of a camera (ie. "whats an F-stop and what's it for?","shutter speed...what does this do for me?", etc., etc...). it would be not only something fun to do, but it would be some good father-daughter bonding time too.

k, my eyes are getting heavy and i have an early start to my day tomorrow.