today i went to the doc to see if we needed to adjust the dosage of my meds, change them up completely, or just lock me up in the looney-bin (its ok, you can laugh, it was a joke). after quite a thorough discussion with me and my mom both, she decided that the depression meds and the bipolar meds weren't doing what they were supposed to be doing after a year's worth of time...so she up and entirely changed my prescriptions, all of them, even the dosage of my thyroid medication. apparently the results of my last blood test showed that my thyroid levels are currently residing at an unacceptable place, which could be part of the blame of my current condition.
of course when you see the doc you always, ALWAYS step on the "scale of doom" to see how much you've gained or lost....or gained. today was a frustrating day for me, for i found out that i've gained 10 lbs since my last visit to her in April. WHAT?!? when did this happen and why didn't i know about it? i mean yeah, i've noticed that my face looks a little bit thicker lately, but why haven't i noticed so much in the clothing department? seriously though! so she decided it was time, yet again, for the "what are we gonna do about this extra weight?" talk and reminded me that if i don't watch it i could easily end up diabetic. DIABETIC? i think not! my grandfather was literally eaten away by diabetes (he lost both his legs and a finger) and i'll be damned (pardon my french) if i let this "creature" take me too. diabetes is a terrible disease and its one less thing that this poor, messed up body/mind of mine needs to deal with. no thank you sister, next please! so she suggested that i make a visit to an endochrinologist to check out my glands and maybe they can slap me around enough to get this weight off my body (i.e. diet & exercise in-store for sweet darling rachel...ugh!).
i'm 27 and falling apart, this is SOO not cool.
let's just hope that the new meds do what they're supposed to do and that i can actually stick to some sort of meal & workout regimen.
Operation: Body & Mind...Go. Go. Go!
...and as always, please say a little pray for me and my family that we all might get through this.
thank you and g'nite.
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Just a question: have your blood been tested for TPO antibodies?
ReplyDeleteI know you feel like you are falling apart, but I really like that they are finally being more active as far as trying to figure out what needs to be done to get leveled out. Finally some answers!! Hang in there Rae, I think about you constantly and pray that you see the beauty in yourself that I have always seen!! Love you!
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